Lost

It kills not to call.

What am I to do to forestall.

I do this, I do that.

And yet the thoughts come back.

And then again I have to fight,

To start again with doing this or that.

Oh boy how sad,

The day just simply goes by.

Even when I sleep, I can’t relax.

I wonder how long this time will last.

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This female so sweet.

And I know she probably feels.

But it can’t be for real.

I have so much to clear,

And yet I want you to be dear.

Wish I could tell her how I feel.

I wish this female was not for real.